Monday, July 14, 2014
You unpack lots of things.
Sometimes it is a relief. Other times, not so much.
Sometimes those boxes, or that old luggage holds a lot of memories. Good ones, bad ones, ugly ones. Sometimes the things in the boxes make it to the new destination. Those things you gently unwrap. Giggle and smile at the memories that they bring up. Place them on the shelf and feel a sense of accomplishment that you did something by yourself. Sometimes they might have a few dings or scratches, and sometimes they are broken beyond repair. What do you do then? You gently gather up the broken pieces, wash them with a fresh new bucket of tears, stuff them into a trash bag, and throw them away.
If only it were that simple....
Every broken thing reminds you of another piece of your broken life. There is no way to put those pieces back together and have it be exactly the way it was before. Every scratch and every dent reminds you of the nice stuff that you used to have that isn't so nice anymore. Every piece of luggage that gets lost reminds you of your own loss. Every feeling that you unpack and share with someone that is not reciprocated reminds you of what you had and desperately want to find again.
Then you realize that there has been someone there helping you to unpack all along.
It might not have been the person or people that you expected. It might have taken a crap ton of hard work to get to this point. It may have been something that you wanted for a while, or something that just snuck up on you. You realize that while you were unpacking the boxes and the luggage there was that one person or people who helped no matter what they had going on in their lives. They made room in their busy lives for you and your unexpected breakdowns and stress. They never told you that they couldn't help. Or wouldn't help. They didn't take advantage of your stressed out state to get what THEY needed from you. You asked and they said sure. Not when it was convenient for them, but when you needed it.
Those are the people that are going to make unpacking your new, scary life that much easier.
For that, I am FOREVER grateful.
Who are you grateful for?