Shakespeare had it right when he wrote "All the world's a stage and all the men and women merely players..." I act all the damn time.
I act as if Im ok.
I act as if it doesn't drive me completely nuts that I don't have a partner any more.
I act as if I know what I'm doing when it comes to being a single parent.
I act as if being a single person doesn't bother me.
I act as if I know what I'm doing when it comes to being a middle aged student.
I act as if not having my own space and my own stuff doesn't bother me.
I act as if being left in thousands of dollars in debt is a workable problem.
I act as if I enjoy living this life I was so abruptly thrust into.
I act as if being so fundamentally lonely I cry every day doesn't bother me.
I act as if I am 100% okay with moving forward with my life even though it scares me to death.
I suppose to one degree or another we are all acting in some form or another. Putting on the perfect parent front at school functions, the extrovert at parties, the quintessential hostess at family holidays...what are some of the performances you put on daily?
Surely I can't be the only one...
No; you aren't the only one; I think we all act in various roles in our lives. I think sometimes people want us to act too because they can't deal with it if we fall apart or am not moving at the speed they want us to, to get over something. I act at putting up a brave front when I am actually scared pretty much every minute of my life.
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Thanks for being so honest! I think that we are all actors in our own little plays sometimes just to please others. It is not healthy! Sometimes I wish we could all let the performing stop and then see how we really are!
DeleteMy daily bash at being a thespian is acting as though I'm listening to other people, when really I'm not. Not so important as your acting burdens. I hope you get a chance often to let it all rip with a scream. It doesn't do to keep it all inside.
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I do get a chance to let it out. Sometimes. I call it my "missing filter". If that doesn't work, sometimes a good, exhausting work out at the gym helps too!
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